everyday · is · passing · quickly

So i figured that the people we had opening this hotel were great, yeah 2 months in, not even, and they all already suck. two of them keep telling me the things I'm not doing in my shift and have to point them all the time, however, when I come in after them they have done absolutely nothing. so....... yeah. three people have quit one including our sales manager. This one dude can't handle the phone and checking someone in without freaking out. the two people that tell me what to do have no idea how to handle distressed people, one just smiles like a dumbass and sounds like a robot and the other freaks out to put it lightly. Anywho, I'm training for food and beverage next week which is awesome! I'll get to cook and everything all by myself, play music in the kitchen. it's going to rule.
and our hotel is filled with asians right now for some odd reason. this is going to make my day hirarious.
tomorrow is my day off, so to the mountains I roam all day, maybe just red rocks to read. we'll see.
Red Sawx game tonight!
Got a Polar Bear Club Pabst Blue Ribbon flag, a moving moutnains vinyl plus a shirt on sunday. They show fuckin ruled!

Casey was here for three and a half days, and minus the sunday night that a worked and a half hour of alone time each day(during showers and stuff) we spent every second together, so you can imagine how weird this feels with her gone. I mean I'm back to my normal life, but yeah. It was just a lot more fun with her here.
But yeah, while she was here though, we both ate super healthy and now that she's gone it's totally back to my normal diet, but this time I'm going to add a little more health into it. I know I was super healthy before, but I think now I'm going to shop at a whole foods a bit more. We had a really great lunch/dinner on wednesday red rocks due to them. A bit pricey for sure, but definately worth it.
During her trip though I did eat smaller portions like my beet ravioli which consisted of three slices a beet and a smidgen of humus on each one while she got the ultimate sangwich. jerk :) I really didnt mind though, I was just glad to see her so happy eating a sandwich bc she cant normally do it due to the whole being allergic to Gluten thing.
We saw Crosby Stills & Nash at Red Rocks and it was awesome! Just made me wish I were living in the 70s for sure. So many drunk moms which meant so many offbeat claps and whistles. Not to mention the drunk dads either, one of whom looked like Whiteboy on acid. This dude jammed the whole time! Best. Dancing. Ever.
We went to Corwina Park right outside of Evergreen on tuesday. We saw the best view I have seen here. The snow covered mountain tops which actually made my camera take bluish pictures that's how awesome they were. My camera actually cried while taking a picture. J/k but seriously......
Anyways, we watched some kids jump in the river with shoes on too. It was hilarious. So many mexicans celebrating memorial day, who woulda thunk.

But yeah, all in all it was a great memorial day and post thereafter, totally worth my allergies going crazy. I definitely blame it on Casey blowing those white flower things in my face, but I definitely wouldn't have changed anything, except maybe would have worn a little more padding. She loves to bite and hit extremely hard when over excited. It's a learning process and now I know to run when something Casey awesome is coming along. Definietly good knowledge before she moves here, plus I need places to put chewed gum so she doesn't put them everywhere and get gum all over. I'll start making a list

Denver rules. I love this place. I'm really building my own personality without my parents around to tell what to do and what not to do and without my best friends there to keep me grounded, I really am on my own out here. I've been trying to keep my partying down and have been. I rarely go out and when I do it's to get a quick drink or go to the mountains or drive to some show. I'm always the DD because JJ's car sucks which is fine because I'm a lot more cautious out here of driving drunk, mostly because everyone at pappadeaux has a DUI.
Working at the Hyatt is great. My manager rules, she moved from Louisville and the her reasoning(and she told our GM this in the interview) was for Red Rocks and all the awesome shows out here haha, so she's awesome. I just finally finished reading Look Me In The Eyes by John Elder Robison and it's about his Asperger's Syndrome and how he coped growing up with it. It was an amazing book and the more and more I read it the more I could see myself in his positions. I swear.
As a kid I had no friends and the ones had just made fun of me all the time for things I would say and do. Then as I grew up I would look at other people and try to figure out what it's like to be normal. Like I don't think anybody what goes on in my head or anything like but I always make up little stories in my head or scenarios of how the day might go or future days. Literally all the time. Not to mention if something is interesting I will research extremely hard on it. I used to always stack things and put things in lines, I always walk on curbs/ledges when they're next to me or going parallel to me. I hate sleeping alone and have always slept with in extra pillow to sleep with or put on my legs. Also he states how he fidgets and his wife will rub his head or lightly scratch his back and that stops him and its the same with me, it's like it soothes me the same way for him. it's weird. so im looking into me having autism.

but yeah, other than me thinking I have autism, life out in Denver is pretty awesome! I've been to five different venues in the past month and a half and have climbed up two mountains so far to be three come monday.

Kbye

So, lately, I've been getting nervous. Sam leaves for school in less than 2 weeks. What am I going to do? I won't have her to talk to everyday, I won't be able to drive a block away every four minutes to smoke with her. I won't be able to cuddle up next to her and drunk all day with her while doing puzzles and avoiding tim. I still have 3 months before I leave. That sucks. Why can't I just leave now, stupid fucking lease. I know it'll be alright and I know I'll do just fine, but it's still these things that rack my brain. I've gotten so close to her in the passed 9 months that it's going to suck to be without her. That doesn't even seem like a long time, but we both say it all the time that we feel like we've known eachother forever. Like we'll tell stories from like 2 years ago and be like, were you there, no I don't think you were this time and then we'll remember oh shit. its crazy.
anyways, yeah I'm just venting my worries. I'm scared for Colorado too. What if I don't like it(which I will), what if I have to come back home(my worst fear), what if Ben never comes to visit me, what if Ben does come to visit me, what if Ben comes to live with me....oh god. The world would implode due to all the freshness. I want to say a new breed is going to Denver.....Dave! but I feel like there's a million Daves out there. I feel unique here, I just hope everything works out....and it will, but I'm just saying. I worry a lot. Like right now, I'm worried about when Brett's going to clean that fucking bath mat that some robo tripping girl puked on. fantastic. thanks for having her over.

we make bad decisions but learn to live with them.

Sitting at work and staring out my window, I looked outside and it was just snowing like crazy still and the first thing I thought is, "so this is what it's like to live in Denver". and I felt calm. I am so excited!

Anyways, New years is coming up and I have no idea what to do. Sam wants to go to Barleycorn bc her friends are going there, so I'll probably end up doing that which just sounds like a brotastic time and that also means I need to get some nice black shoes for it. Damnit, I hate nice black shoes, I never wear them for anything. Why can't a sweet pair of black vans suffice. I'm ok with a whole tie, and nice pants and nice shirt deal, but the nice shoes are just the worst. You can never tell if they fit right and you always end up getting them a size too big or a size too small.

This whole post was mainly about nice shoes. fuckin' nice shoes.